A collection of thoughts and other stuff not worthy of a full post.


Today is the day I stand up, dust myself off and look forward.  Things have gotten too damn depressing around here!  I am a strong, good person and will survive all that life throws at me.


I have a great family and two of the greatest friends a person could ever ask for in life and I am very grateful for them in my life!  Thank you!


I have made some VERY caring and wonderful friends online and cannot thank everyone enough for the kind emails and thoughts.  If I have not responded to you, or have and it made no sense, I am sorry.  This last week has been a week of reflection.  A week of looking deep inside of me and finding myself again, the me that got lost somewhere between childbirth and diaper changing.  If you thought I was funny before…wait till you meet the real me!


Today was productive.  I worked out, I took Kaiden to ballet, I went grocery shopping, I cleaned house, I cleaned out the garage (quite a chore), and I made an appearance outside of my house for the first time this week and cleaned up the front yard so that my neighbors do not think that I am an asshole.  I did not cry or think any miserable thoughts ALL day.


I will return to work on Monday.  As much as I would love to stay home and get paid to be miserable on my couch…I don’t think my boss would go for that for too long.  I cannot even imagine what my desk looks like.  I am thankful that I have an understanding employer.


I have to finally get up and lose the baby weight - it is the one thing that has made me so miserable with myself and in turn let me push that misery on everyone around me.  I have set some goals for myself, so that I can get back to running again - I was never happier than when I was running 5 miles a day.  When I meet all my goals I am getting a boob job.  When I get skinny, my boobs become non-existent.  Nothing big, I am not a fan of big, but I am a fan of perky!  This will be my reward for myself, a nice little “lift!”


What have I missed?