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Day 02 — Something you love about yourself.

If I had to pick one thing that I love about myself it would be my sense of humor and quick wit.  God knows it gets me through this shit-storm of a life I got going on.  I try to find the funny in EVERYTHING and if there is no funny to be found… that makes it even funnier to me.  I appreciate the hell out of my friends because they share my humor and put up with my filterless, never-ending mouth.  I love that when put in any given situation where the jokes start flying… I can hang like a CHAMPION!  I somehow have a comeback for EVERYTHING.  It is rare that I don’t.  It is like it is a gift.  I could not imagine my life without my sense of humor… it is what makes me… me.

So I read on LaLaGirl’s blog, who read on Joelle’s blog, about needing some blogging inspiration and they are both doing a 30 day sort-of writing challenge where every day for 30 days they answer a question or discuss a topic about themselves.  I have read through the list… and some seam easy and some seam hard… but I am up for a challenge and god knows I need to dust the cobwebs off around here and post more, so I am game and will do it too!  Here are the thirty questions/topics:

Day 01 — Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 — Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 — Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 — Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 — Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 — Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 — Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 — Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 — Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 — Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 — Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 — Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 — A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 — A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 — Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 — Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 — A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 — Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 — What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 — Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 — (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 — Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 — Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 — Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 — The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 — Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 — What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 — What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 — Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 — A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 01 — Something you hate about yourself.

There are several things (probably more) that I hate about myself, but I would have to say that the one that comes to mind first and that I think about most often would be my inability to RELAX and LET THINGS GO.  I have some serious OCD tendencies, and this falls under that domain and it varies big time from small minute things to HUGE ongoing issues in my life.  It could be as small as getting the housework done (ALL DONE in a manner that is deemed acceptable to ME) BEFORE all the planned activities for the weekend occur, or knowing something that needs to get done and not having the time to get it done.  Most people can shrug it off and say “oh well screw it…” but I have a hard time with that… it consumes me and I don’t feel like I can move forward until I can mentally check it off the list.  Which leads to the mental list… my brain never stops, I am constantly going over this mental list of everything that needs to get done and it is exhausting.  I would give anything to be able to have a “f*ck it” type attitude so that I could RELAX and enjoy more and stress less.  I feel like in a lot of ways it is a debilitating trait to have.  I am organized as crap… but feel cheated in other areas.  And it is not something I can just change about myself.  I wish it was.

On the Wednesday after returning from my trip to Jamaica (maybe now you will understand what took me so long to post about the trip), I took the kids to their Summer Rec program before work, just like I do every single other weekday during the summer.  As we were walking out to the playground I noticed one of the teachers checking one of the kid’s heads and immediately asked… “What are you checking for?” and he replied “just doing a random lice check” like it was no big deal.  I thought to myself… “Oh, well that’s cool, I am glad they are doing that!”  At 10:00am that same day, I received a call at work that Kaiden had lice and I needed to come pick her up.  After talking to the person on the phone and telling them what I had seen that morning, I got a little more info out of her about the situation.  Apparently several kids had been sent home on Monday with lice.  On Tuesday eight more were sent home with it.  By Wednesday (the day they called me) thirty kids were quarantined in a room and all had lice.  I WAS F*CKING PISSED!

I got there to pick up Kaiden and was told they found no live lice in her hair, but did find eggs.  I got her and Ashton and stopped by the main office and WENT OFF.  Why in the HELL were parents not notified that kids had already been sent home with it?  On Monday when several kids went home… notes should have been posted.  On Tuesday when it was worse… notes should have gone home in lunchboxes or handed directly to parents at pickup.  They sell Lice Guard products to prevent lice infestation when there are outbreaks, which I would have gotten.  OR I would have chosen to keep my kids home with my dad.  Kaiden’s hair could have been braided up and sprayed down.  SOMETHING could have been done had I known there was an issue at the school!!!

We got home and I treated all three of us and spent HOURS combing through our hair with a lice comb (finding NOTHING - but I soldiered on as if I had).  I stripped every single bed and washed everything we owned in hot water.  What could not be washed (throw pillows, stuffed animals, etc) was bagged up tight for two weeks to suffocate and starve the bastards.  All furniture was sprayed down with lice spray, everything was vacuumed.  I was seriously declaring war on those disgusting things.  For the next few days, I was checking her constantly and Ashton too and they were clean… clean until 9:00pm the night before their very first day of school when I found a teeny tiny baby one that had just hatched in Kaiden’s hair.  I lost it.  I was in tears as I loaded both my kids up in the car and headed to a drug store to by MORE lice treatment.  Poor kids did not get to sleep until almost midnight that night and had to get up for first day of school the next morning.  It was that morning that I decided I would treat and comb all of us every single day if I had too.  I called our Pediatrician and asked her to call me in a prescription for the strong stuff, which was AWFUL - it was like pouring a mixture of ammonia and cat piss all over your head.  It smelled so disgusting and you had to leave it in for 8 to 12 hours before washing it out, not to mention it was EXTREMELY FLAMMABLE - like do not even use a hair dryer or you will go up into flames flammable!

We spent two weeks treating ourselves (through tears every time I had to do it).  Using towels only once and then washing them in hot water.  Washing sheets.  Boiling brushes and hair ties daily.  I was doing laundry like I operated a 24 hour laundromat out of my house… it was ridiculous!!!  We never did see anything else after the one I found the night before their first day of school.  Their daycare bombed the building and steam-cleaned the carpets and brought in a RN to catch kids on the way in first thing in the mornings every day to do thorough checks - anyone found with lice/eggs was/is immediately quarantined and sent home.  Kaiden and Ashton have checked out okay every time.  I have finally un-bagged everything and we have gotten back to normal for the most part.  It was the most nerve-racking two weeks EVER!  What kills me is the amount of kids that kept coming back re-infested and had to continue to be sent home… THAT is what sucks… you can do everything in your power to rid your family of it, but you can’t do ANYTHING about the other families that do the bare minimum and keep sending their kids back to re-infest your kids.  I PRAY TO ALL THAT IS HOLY that we NEVER have to go through this crap again!

P.S. Now you are all itching after reading this, aren’t you?  That is how I lived for weeks!  IT SUCKS!

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